This is way back from 2008. I remember back then this photo seemed completely worthless to me. Now it speaks thousand words. Near the times when all my problems began. When I look at this, it scares me to think where did I come from. Here my weight was the smallest it has ever been. No I am not anorexic or ill. I could say that pain was eating me inside out, I could add word literally and it would be true. The worst thing is when you can't answer yourself what is wrong. You do know it, but its hidden so deep down inside yourself that you have to claw it out.
Approximately 4 years passed from me starting to sink in all this shit. I had big ups, but the downs were always bigger. Eventho things are getting better. A LOT. I still won't ever be able to heal myself.
Being creative works as a painkiller.